Happy 51st Independence Day

Happy independence day to all Malaysians. I accidently watched 'Embun' at Astro Ria this morning and I just can't take my eyes off the tv. (walaupun dah lapuk) I am touched by the movie and suddenly haku tiba-tiba benci bos haku. hahahahaha.. This is what we call immediate effects. Sorry Kurosu san, I still love you.. Bila saya nak naik gaji nih?

Of Young Married Woman

I was having a lunch with my colleagues last friday when the topic of young married couple rose. One claimed that it is quite a loss to get married at a young age by not being able to enjoying the life. Being a minority (yes, i am the only person who married and have a kid) i prefer to listen than give opinions because first, no matter how i explained nobody will understand and second, i am afraid if my opinions will hurt other people's feeling. To me, it is a taboo topic to talk about happy married life with someone who have yet to tie the knot (when people around keep bugging him/her about it) and to talk about kids or pregnancy with people who trying very hard to conceive for years.

Married at young age doesn't means that you can't enjoy your life. You still can enjoy the life the way you want it but of course there are restrictions and barrier especially if you have a kid. I don't see the restriction is a major burden because i'm doing it for my love ones, and most importantly i enjoy doing it. Still enjoy right.. It is my plan, my choice to marry at 24 and got pregnant a year later. I want to have kids while i'm still young, full of energy to push them out during labor and the most importantly, Insyallah by the time both of us retire our kids has grown up. I don't want to get old and still have to worry about child education or whatnots because i want to grow old, happy and rich. Insyaallah.

I know, only those with the same boat as mine will understand. To all young mommies, we rocks kan?

The Day That I Think My Car Attracts More and More People

I think my car attracts people. Sorry, saya bukan perasan tau tapi memang betul. Be it the police traffic, JPJ ke atau driver yang lain. With the fact that i am driving a merah menyala 3 door competitor's car, people have a different perception towards me like for them, since i am driving that car, my behavior or style should be like this or like that. There was once masa i worked at NEC dulu, my male colleague did asked me whether i joined any sports activity organized by the company. When i said no, his replied was " Ingatkan agresif dan sporty macam kereta jugak.." My oh my... Not to mention usually at traffic lights people will stare at my car and look for the driver. I feel very annoyed at most times. Tu belum lagi if the police traffic yang kawal jalan pagi-pagi on the way to my office, mesti kereta aku yang dia tahan untuk stop. Agaknya polis ni dapat tengok kaler merah ajer kot. Yang paling tak tahan tu, dah 3 kali kena tahan dengan polis dan JPJ masa mereka buat road block. Sekali tu, dia cuma check IC aje. Hello, saya ni tak nampak macam bawah 18 tahun OK! Yang kedua kali, polis membebel pasal my tinted cermin. Mana ada gelap. Saja cari pasal. Dua-dua ni lepas lah, tak kena saman. Tapi yang paling tak tahan sekali semalam. Nak masuk ke tol Rawang, ada lah pulak road block.

Hati dah berdebar..Dupdapdupdapdupdap.. Macam kena tahan je (cakap dalam hati).

Sekali betul daa, tekaan. Kena tahan. Then, datanglah sorang polis muda (hensem jugak)terkedek-kedek. Lepas tu, dia boleh nampak pulak lampu brake tak menyala. ah sudah.. habis aku. Maka bermula lah sesi soal jawab dengan en polis.

En polis: Kenapa lampu brek tak menyala.

Me: (Buat muka terkejut. Padahal dah tau lama dah, tapi tak tuka2 lagi) Eh, ye ke encik? tak perasan la. sorry!

En polis: Mana boleh sorry nih.

Me: Ala encik, takkan tak boleh lebih kurang. Saya baru repair sabtu lepas, ok jer, mana tau jadi balik (Tipu pulak tu!)

En polis: Lebih boleh, kurang tak boleh! (aik, lain macam aje.. nak kena hulur ke ni?hihihihi). Awak ni keje mana? (sambil mata memandang logo company kat uniform) Oh, keje PER*2, awak jual kereta ke?

Me: Tak cik, saya duk opis jer.

En polis: Kalau jual kereta, boleh lah saya tolong. Bak sini IC dan lesen.

Me: (merayu lagi dengan memberi senyuman yang paaaling manis) encik, tolong lah encik...

En polis: Awak ni duduk kat mana?

Me: Kuang

En polis: Raya nanti saya datang rumah boleh? (sambil dia menulis alamat rumahku di atas kertas).

Me: Haa??? (alamak, lain macam ni..)

En polis: Boleh ke, tak boleh?

Me: (senyum je.., terpaksa layan beb, kalo tak kena saman)

En polis: Nah, amik ni. lain kali jangan buat lagi. Gaji banyak tapi tak nak tukar lampu brek.

Me: Tak encik, gaji saya tak banyak, saya kerje kuli aje.

En polis: Eh, menjawab pulak. Dah pergilah.

Me: Aaaa?? Jadi tak kena saman ke?

En polis: Awak nak ke?

Me: Tak nak..Mekasih en. polis..(sambil berlalu pergi)

Huh, I wasted my 10 minutes mengedik-gedik kat tepi jalan. Lambat amik Sarah semalam. See, sebenarnya takde ape pun. Masa polis tuh tahan, mana dia dapat detect my brake light was malfunction sbb mende tuh kat belakang. I told my hubby and his reaction was, "ala, polis tu nak mengurat mama tu" Please lah!

Sometimes, other drivers especially MALE gave me a stare or a look bila aku drive tak betul. Tolong lah, no matter what car i drive, i am still a female driver who admit that sometimes lousy jugak.

Ini baru drive local car, kalo drive EVO ka, Skyline ka dan drive 60km/h mesti dapat tohmahan yang lebih keji lagi kan.. Apapun, kereta saya, sukati saya lah!

The Day That I Give Up on Breastfeeding

Yes, i gave up on breastfeeding. It has been 1 month since i tried many things to relactate again. I tried many ways i.e taking prescribed pills, milkmaid tea, drink lotsa water, eat very healthy food, drink milk, berurut, makan kobis, sawi, lobak putih and whatnots.. i even pump my breast every other night to stimulate my breast due to the "sucking" effects since Sarah no longer want it. Just because I don't breastfeed my child anymore, and that makes me a bad mom? It is not that i don't want to but i just couldn't produce milk anymore. Is there any other way aside from all the stated above that i miss or not yet to try?

When all else fail, I shall raise my white flag.

Sarah, mama wants to apologize to you for not being able to bf you and to provide you with the most nutritious food that 4-month old baby should have.

A Bad Day

I'm having a bad day. In fact, i'm having it for the whole week. I'll be settling this issue tomorrow for once and for good.

" When it wants to happen, it happens" ~ Murphy's Law

Sarah Turns 4-Months Old

Hari ni genap usia Sarah 4 bulan. Macam mimpi sebab cepat sungguh masa berlalu. So her milestone are:-

- She weighs 5.7kg (masa ni check up 2 minggu lepas, maybe by today dah nak dekat 6 kg kut)
- Sarah baru pandai mengiring.. Bila nak meniarap ni sayang?
- Sarah suka hisap jari dan main air liur banyak-banyak.

Aksi hisap jari sambil mengiringkan badan.

- Sarah dah tak jaga malam kerap sangat dah. lately nih mesti dalam pukul 11 atau 12 nak

minum susu and then tido sampai pukul 5.30 pagi esoknya. Senang kami, tidur pun lena sikit.
- Sarah laju nak 'bercakap'. Kalau kami tak layan, dia akan menangis.
- Dah mula tunjuk perasaan nak merajuk, tak boleh cakap kuat sikit mesti muka dah mencebik.
- Pandai senyum depan kamera. At last dapat jugak mama snap gambar Sarah tengah senyum.

My Little Miss Sunshine

- Dan, yang paling penting Sarah sihat walafiat. Alhamdulillah!

Aksi2 dari umur 3 bulan ke 4 bulan

Of Warehouse Sale.

As told in previous entry, hari jumaat tu gi Glenmarie for kaizen activity. KEBETULAN, ada Clarks's warehouse sale. Dah plan dengan Yanti, pkl 9 am-11 am: Kat service centre. Hari jumaat pulak tuh, lunch time kan lama, jadi maybe boleh lah singgah warehouse sale tu pastu, niat di hati nak singgah subang jaya service centre since sangat dekat dengan glenmarie. Habis je kerja kat glenmarie, terus gi warehouse sales itu and..

OMG! panjang sungguh barisan. 2 jam ok nak beratur. Tapi takpe, demi kasut murah, rela aku beratur panjang didalam kepanasan. I noticed that some people are complaining on the long queue and cursing so much. Hello, if you can't stand the long queue under the hot sun, go straight to the boutique ok.

The crowd.

2 orang yang tak penat beratur. Yang sebelah tu terlebih excited sampai senyum nampak gigi ;P

A few people also brought their baby together. I pity those babies. Some of them cried loudly. Mesti dorang dah panas, rimas pulak tu. Tetiba2 dalam hati jadi sangat emosional teringat dekat sarah. Lepas 2 jam beratur dan tolak menolak, dapat jugak lah masuk.. Wah, ramai betul manusia. Kasut pun banyak. Kalau sape kaki size gajah macam saya mesti dapat banyak pilihan. men's shoe pun boleh tahan. Memang diskaun gila. And then, nak bayar pulak queue masih panjang. Saya q, yanti jaga kasut2 kami. Lepas dah bayar, keluar dari tempat itu dengan senyum sampai ke telinga dan hidung kembang kempis. bangga beb, sebab dapat beli 4 kasut dengan harga RM *10 sahaja. Ok lah tu untuk kasut clark's kan?

Ni q untuk bayar pulak. Q untuk credit card lagi panjang dari q untuk cash.

Yanti tengah jaga kasut ;P

Kasut saya dan satu sandal untuk OH

Nak pi keta yang di park beribu batu pulak satu hal. tekak dah haus gile. cepat2 cari kedai untuk minum. Masa tu, dah pukul 2.30 pm dah. Nak lari balik ke opis, memang tak ah. Buang masa aje nak travel, nak pi Subang service cam dah tak daya aje. Lagipun tak call SM nye lagi. Apa lagi, we headed straight to home walaupun saya sebenarnya dalam hati rasa guilty. Balik rumah, did laundry, sapu2 sikit, lap2 habuk and terus ON my PC. Sebab rasa guilty, jadi nak buat claim processing online dari rumah. Check claim, wahhh.. ada 1509 claim. Buat baru dalam 20 claim, asik hang aje system, pastu asik2 page cannot be diplayed. Padanlah, dealers banyak complaint. baru lah merasa betapa susahnya. Sebab macam buang masa dan letrik, terus OFF pc dan rehat jap sebab malam tu kena pi kenduri, haiiih..penatnya hidup saya hari itu..

Of My Nosy Colleague.

Today at work, I manage to catch the nosy person who sit next to my cubicle peeping through my email with her big-round-black eye (eye bag). Masa tu, i was typing an email to one service manager when suddenly she ask something to the person who sit in front of me. Then, tiba2 macam ada perasaan orang tengok aku (ke tengok email aku?) Cepat2 aku toleh and found her staring at my screen, reading the email word by word. Macam h*r*m betul lah dia ni. terus aku sergah dia dgn loud. Loud enough utk orang sekeliling aku heard my words. "Eh, Apsal tengok2 email orang nih?" sebenarnya nak tambah lagi, "ko ni dah takde keje lain, asik nak menyibuk hal orang lain ke? sibuk nak tahu apa aku tulis, apa aku cakap dengn yanti? Get a life lah!" Tapi, akhirnya, ayat 2 tu cuma tersimpan didalam hati jer.. Walaupun begitu, ayat yang tak berapa power telah menyebabkan dia malu sendirian dan trus beralih pandang ketempat lain..hehehe..
Maknanya aku berjaya jugak lah.

Oh, Btw tomorrow ada a few work to be done at one of our service centre at Glenmarie. and KEBETULAN, ada Clark's Warehouse Sale berdekatan..Hmm..Macam harus pergi nih..! ;P

Cooking Out on Sunday

I hardly cook on weekdays because it is too tiring to cook after come back from work. So on weekend I will cook our favorite dish (favorite ke? OH have no choice but to eat it..hehehehe..). When there was only two of us, I can cook anything, anytime I want but not now. Sarah wakes up every 8.30 am, bathe at 9.00 am, feed and bring her outside (she loves the morning sun, kalo tak kuar merengek-rengek) until 10.00 am. Then, go to sleep and wakes up at around 10.30 am ~ 10.40 am. Time is too short that I don't even have the opportunity to clean the veggies, fish and what nots.. Nowadays, I can only cook simple dish with this limited of time. So today here what I cooked. Oven Baked Tandoori Chicken with Tomatoes, Sambal Udang Petai, Ulam Timun, Tomato dan Telur Masin.

Simple but yet tasty (at least to my OH). ;P

And today, Sarah cried a lot. I don't know why. Sarah asik nak dukung aje sampai mama dah tak larat. Last2, letak jer kat bawah biar dia menangis. Sorry sayang, tapi tangan mama dah lenguh sangat. Pastu, sempat snap pic sarah tengah nangis..Eeeiii, tak malu..

Mama..Dukunglah kita... Waaaa...

Muka lepas nangis..Eeeii comot!

Aktiviti yang kita suka skrg ni, Hisap tangan. Nasib baik tak luak, kalo tak dah separuh tinggal tau..

More Pics of Sarah

More Sarah pics to share with you people..

Masa ni kita kat spital lagi, Thanks to Aunty Yanti yang sudi snap gambar kita. Tak tahu kenapa tangan kita tak dapat kawal, nak pegang jugak towel kaler peach tu..

Masa ni kita baru balik rumah nenek. Yang belakang tu sepupu kita, Abang Eiman dan Kakak Ada.

Kita masa kecik, tido kena pakai topi sebab takut masuk angin. Notice tak ada benang kat dahi kita? sebab kita kena sedu..

Kita nak mandi ni, tapi sempat tengok tv dulu, sampai sekarang kita masih mandi kat living hall. Mama tak berani lagi.

Pening kepala kita mama,fikir besok besar nak jadi apa?

Papa ni nak dodoikan kita, atau nak posing?

beshnyer lepak kat katil mama ngan papa, Ni katil kita juga kan??

Apa spongebob ni, usik2 bahu kita..Tak suka lah!

Kita mengantuk lah, nak tido.

ZZzzzzzzz............

Hot, Hot Story

My office is hot at the moment, not the ambience but on the latest hot gossip. Ok, i don't mean to be so kepoh but it seems like everybody know the story(even my male technical assistant, bujang pulak tu brought this story up) . Nothing is hotter than someones illegal affair. Apparently, this mom of one kid are having an affair with a bachelor who works on the same floor with her hubby, and both of them were fighting over her. Everybody is gossiping about them with more juicy stories, don't even know whether it's true or somebody just making it up to add spies. I pity them especially the husband. The husband is known for his good-ness and the wife is undeniably gorgeous. and This bachelor is known for his flirty behaviour with one girl and another. But that's fine for him since he is single. Somebody said that their relationship is not serious and she too just flirting for 'suka-suka'. And i think that this 'suka-suka' thing telah menjadi duka. This is a lesson to everybody including myself. Don't ever dare to flirt IF you're married. Maybe for you it is just for fun but does your spouse will think the same too? I don't think so. I hope their relationship will be recovered soon.

Moral of the hot story: Air yang tenang jangan di sangka tiada buaya dan sepandai-pandai tupai melompat akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua.

Of Sister's Shocking News.

I received a very shocking news yesterday: My sister was admitted to the hospital and nearly die due to jaw dislocated.

So this is the story from my dad,

She has this one attitude: Big yawn with wide open mouth. On monday night, she went straight to the bed after watched her fav tv show and suddenly my dad heard a noise from her room. He did not expect anything but suddenly my sis get out of his room with his wide open mouth and she was crying. Her tongue was stiff and she's in pain. My dad was very shock and knowing that she can't speak, he wrote on a paper asking her what happened. They rushed to the nearby clinic but the doctor asked them to go straight to Hospital Sg Buloh. My dad went straight to the emergency and the staff asked him to drop her off and parked the car. He did not know what happened to her as upon his arrival at the emergency room, her mouth already shut. The doctor already fixed her jaw by massaging the affected area. According to the doctor her jaw was disengaged due to her big yawn and warned her that this may happen again.

My dad was so reliefed that she is ok and he said he will blame himself if anything happened to my sister. Just so you know, my mother has passed away for 6 years. At that time my sis was in form two and being the last child who always get pampered, she's the one that having the hardest time. She grew up inappropiately, everybody was busy and let her alone at home most of the time. My dad has never remarry although we always tell him that it's fine with us, And being a lonely father, he usually gets out at night for a tea with his friends. Luckily that night my dad was at home and able to bring her to the hospital. We couldn't imagine what will happen to her if nobody was at home. Since that case happened we felt that it's time we look back at our relationship. We did not spend much time together for the past 6 years as everybody was busy with their own life. This sister is lonely, I know. I can see her upset face everytime I was about to leave her during my visit.

To my sister,

Although you're always got bullied and teased mostly by us (esp my bro, Hisyam), we want you to know that we always love you. We know that your ridiculous behavior is the result of lack of love and we never blame you for that. We accept you for the way you are and hoping that you will always be the 'Nisa' that we know. Please STOP making big yawn next time ok.

My sis (Nisa) and my nephew (Sufi)

Nisa and the brother that always tease and bully her, Hisyam.

Our 2nd Anniversary

Hari ni ulang tahun perkahwinan kami yang ke 2. Takde apa celebration pun sebab kami dah decide nak celebrate pi makan2 on weekend (which weekend pun, tak tahu lagi). OH bagi saya sekeping kad and chocolates. Thanks papa.

To papa, thanks for always being there for me..tru good and bad times, for being my friend, my boyfriend,my lover, my husband, my enemy, my maid, my father, my mother, my siblings, my uncles, my aunties, my banker.. and especially for making me pregnant with our daughter, Sarah. Thanks for everything! I love you so much.

Sarah's Funny Pics

Ever since I got a baby, i found myself has turning into an unprofessional photographer. People used to say that "Biasa lah, first baby so excited nak amik gambar, nanti anak second, third..takde" Well, I won't say that I AM Not going to end up like that, just wait and see when the time comes and i hope i will be fair to all my kids. (Insyaallah).

I found that some of Sarah's pic are very funny, with her making an unusual, hilarious facial expression, gestures and movement like these...

Sarah mengantuk, mama sibuk nak snap gambar sarah.

Seluruh kawasan ini Ahmad Albab eh, Sarah yang punya...

Eh Mama, Sarah dah boleh berenang dah nih..

Uwekk!!!

Apasal? Lu orang ada masalah apa dgn gua dan papa gua?

Apa lah org ni tengok2 sarah aje nih..???

Tolong lepaskan saya, saya tak nak dibedung..

Of Saturday's Day Out

Yesterday (saturday) activity was:-

1. Tempah baju raya (at last, done it!)

2. Shopping @ One Utama

Shopping is my MAJOR plan for this weekend because first, I want to buy gift for my friends' weddings, second, I want to buy more decent clothes for myself, bukanlah baju yang lain tak cukup decent, tapi kalau pakai THOSE clothes to work on fridays, mesti ada pengkritik tak bertauliah kritik baju semua orang. (yes, it's him, Stripper-the-weirdo-colleague!) third, because i'm thinking of buying toys for Sarah and fourth, because it's SALE, Need I say more. Gaji baru dapat pulak tuh..

I got 3 scarves and 2 tops for myself and for Sarah (no toys tho') a pink dress, a purple spaghetti strap and pants, a pair of shoes, 2 pair of pink (pink laagii!!) socks and new pink bedsheet. OH bought us a new Aussino bedsheet and quilt cover. I heart Aussino. since it's sale, bedsheet yang lawa2 semua murah2..

Sarah stuff yang sempat mama beli

Actually, there is a few items that i need (or want?) to buy but due to time constraint and Sarah dah mengamuk, i just have to say bye-bye. Tapi rasa rugi sangat, Jadi next week HARUS ambil cuti untuk shopping.

Of Anniversary and Gift

It's about 3 days more to our 2nd anniversary. Being a (trying to be) romantic wife, i plan to buy him a gift and of course, I want something in return. (jgn tipu, kalo korang bagi gift kat hubby but never expect anything in return.) Jadi, saya pun saja lah tanya kat other half what he wants for this coming anniversary. So the conversation went like this:-

Myself: Papa nak apa for our 2nd anniversary?

OH: (As always) Papa tak nak apa-apa, papa nak mama aje..

Myself: (dalam hati) Duhhh.....

OH: Mama nak apa pulak?

Myself: (dalam hati)yes! yes! papa tanya.. errrrrrr.... Mama nak The Bag (he knows which bag i'm refering to. Anyway, The Bag cost a bomb!) yang mama dah eyeing for weeks tuh, boleh tak?

OH: Boleh.................

Myself: Boleh? Ye ke????(sambil senyum lebar sampai ke telinga)

OH: Boleh, tapi in return boleh tak mama hadiahkan papa gearbox baru untuk kereta papa???

Myself: Hah!!!! (dengan mata bulat sebab sangat terkejut kerana harga gearbox lagi mahal dari The Bag). Papa saja jer....

OH: Hehehehehehe

So I guess neither one of us will be getting The Bag or gearbox as our gift. Nak aje saya recommend OH tak payah tukar gearbox for his old-Banyak Makan Wang car. We can use my car and at the same time i'll get The Bag! kan..kan..kan.. Tapi, sebenarnya memang kena tukar cepat gearbox tu sbb it is not comfortable to use my car nowadays. Bila nak keluar, nak bawak stroller, baby carier yadayadayadayada, dah penuh satu kereta. Tu belum lagi kalau mood shopping tengah baik.All this because i'm driving a competitor's 3 door car. Since OH nyer is 5 door car, jadi definitely it is much much comfy to commute especially with Sarah.

Pernah jugak i recommend OH to sell his car and I let go off my car and buy Myvi instead. Tapi OH so heart his car, and never let go off his car walau harga petrol semakin meningkat.. And i myself, awal tahun hari tu ingat-ingatkan nak tukar Myvi, tapi bila check kat bank, loan masih banyak lagi..Ya ampun..memang tak lah! Buat banyak2 kan hutang I je..

Hmm..Bila lah I will get a FAT paycheck so that bole beli The Car idaman hati. Btw, The Car idaman hati bukan Myvi ok, tapi Mitsubishi Airtrek Turbo!

So today, OH came out with an idea, apa kata kalau kita have a nice, fancy dinner. Tak payah beli hadiah2 nih..Buat pening kepala aja. So, he let me choose the place and suitable date. Kerana anniversary jatuh pada hari selasa, so no way, we will go out that night,kalau tak aku meroyan besok kat opis sebab mengantuk. So, tengoklah bila sesuai. This coming saturday, nak gi wedding Abot and his uncle get engage pulak..Bila lah masa yang sesuai.... Date will be decide later, maybe an impromptu dinner, but better be fancy and nice ok OH?