The Rise and Fall in 2009

Wow, tup tap tup tap we reach to the end of 2009. Tho' ada lagi 2 hari left but I think it is not too early for me to list out my ups and downs, the achievements and fall during this whole year of 2009.

1) Family

- We are welcoming new family member to my family, my sister got married in June 2009 and she is now 5 months pregnant and expecting a boy!

- I too got pregnant and entering the 4th months of pregnancy.

- My husband and I are already married for 3 years, and we are still in a phase of understanding each other. Of course there is hiccups in marriage but that is normal. At least, we are working out for the solutions and didn't run from it and I love him so strong..;p

2) Financial

- The recession during the early of this year did affect us, Mr husband to be specific. We had tough times during the first half but Alhamdulillah, he already fully recovered by June until now.

- We are one step ahead in achieveing our dream home. The next step has yet to be decided since it is all depending on our final saving. Read: To build a home with cash. But seriously, i sudah tak sabar mahu bina rumah dan rasa mahu saja take up loans tapi tak mahu hutang. So how now brown cow?

3) Career

- Boss decided to upgrading me so yeah! thanks to the company for the pay rise which we so needed for the arrival of new family member next year.

- I have been a positive person when it comes to career for this year. My boss commented that I sudah cool down, and no more a grumpy lady.

- But still, I am a scary boss to work with. I like things to be done fast and accurate like how I always do. My male assistant really scared of me , which of course I marah for reason. I don't like excuses and it is either you do it or you don't do it. Giving such lame excuses will just make me more angry.

- I had tough times to work with some male colleagues/affiliates because sometimes they just don't bother with their job. I even once had a fight with one of them but towards this end of the year we already berbaik-baik and act like nothing happens between us. (This is what I like with working with a male, no heart feeling!)

- As an overall, I love my career but would love to have better opportunity in a different company to gain handsome salary. Maybe in 2010 after confinement perhaps?

4) Friends

- At this age, what bothers me much is family and career. But having a good friends are nice as they occupy us during boredom and being our partner in crime in the office. Friends come and go but they left footsteps in my heart. So thank you (you know who you are) so much for having you, cool people, and made me squeeze for your places in my heart.

5) Others

- I finally bought my first D. I've been eyeing for months and finally got it.

- I didn't do much shopping for myself this year. I already did it in January once and pay a hefty price for good clothes, scarves etc and it is so worth it.

- I still have car and study loans to settle of. Eish eish, bila kah kau nak habis.

- I am happy because I manage my money well.

- Yang part keagamaan, biarlah Allah s.w.t yang tentukan. Saya tak layak mahu evaluate diri sendiri.

So what is my 2010 resolutions? seiously I takde azam, I just have plans and will execute it as how I planned.

Thank You.

5

Is not a really bad figure right?

and I've secured an upgrading for next year.

Alhamdulillah, rezeki anak-anak.

I'm 15 Weeks on a P Mode.

Yes people, I am 15 weeks pregnant and I am in my early second trimester now. It took me a while before officially announcing it openly for the below reason:-

1. I was in denial at first, could not believe that I was pregnant. Why? Most of my close friends/relatives knew that I waited for a year before able to concieved Sarah, but only a few knew that I seek for O&G help (with Allah's blessing) to have Sarah.

2. Yes, this baby is unplanned but he/she is much welcome by us. This baby is a blessing from Allah. Many fortunate things happened to us ever since I am carrying her/him. With that, Syukur Alhamdulillah.

3. The first trimester for this pregnancy was smooth. Yes there are the neusea feeling (still am) but, I feel good most of the time. Syukur for the easy journey.

4. I still took the very bumpy pathway to avoid traffic jams when returning home from work and for 3 months I kept praying for Allah to save the fetous in my womb and everyday I keep asking myself, could I still be pregnant?

5. So yesterday during my monthly visit, I could clearly seen my baby's heartbeat, cute hands and limbs and that made me believe I am still pregnant!

Tho' I was thrilled and surprised by ths pregnancy, a visit to the O&G is my routine since the first month itself. Especially when I was about to visit Korea and with the H1N1 cases which seems not the best time to fly, and when the company doctor scares me with taking a flu injection during the first trimester. (Note: Thanks to shila for always being my google agent when I'm at work. She helped googling on the flu injection btw) However my O&G specialist assured me and as what he always mention, every pregnancy carries a risk even at 0.0001% so we as a human must believe in faith and at the same time take necessary precautions to avoid or to protect ourselves as well as the baby.

Well, I already updating this blog with the baby ticker (as well as the overall layout). Enough with my pregnancy news for now, and I may write another entry on my journey before able to conceive Sarah. Perhaps, some people might need that info.

I'm At Home.

I had MC today. The first one for 2009. Nice time ha to have MC since tomorrow is a public holiday and MC in December? the appraisal already in the past.

I am having a fever and dizzy. I am an anemic and my BP is only 94. I nearly fainted when I get up from bed this morning. Even the lamb chop that I consumed last night doesn't help to increase my BP to the normal level. The doctor(s) always always advised me to eat more and more read meats (aside from vitamins).

I think thrice whether to go or not to go working today. I have one unfinished report, and a new system to make the user guide, and owh! I just remember, the 'Ijou' Hunting for the Quality Campaign that I was made to participate. Guess I made the right choice as my head is spinning and the headache is getting worse.

I just wanna have my time today, taking the last sip of isotonic drink and sit in front of my lappy to catch the latest updates. We sent Sarah to the babysitter so that I could relax at home and I feel really relaxing.

Ini Adalah Mengembirakan.

Happy ya bila ada cuti umum hari jumaat. Happy sebab dapat time off dari bekerja, tidak confuse mahu pakai baju apa pada hari jumaat sebab itu hari uniform-less, tak perlu memandu yang paling penting.

Paling happy hari ni cuaca sangat bagus, panas terik dan laundry cepat kering dan berbau 'matahari'.

Happy bila melepak di rumah bapak, dengan siblings yang lain sambil makan cekodok bawang, aiskrim dan buah pulasan juga teh panas.

Lagi happy bila dengar-dengar (dari bos saya sendiri) ada 'special briefing' on Monday! Tapi bila check public folder announcement takde pun memo... Kalau takde mati lah saya kena keji sebab dah kepochi dengan someone dari kilang hingga dia batalkan meeting kami hari isnin.. ;p

Syukur kerana ini hari yang mengembirakan.

Sigh.

Seriously sangat exhausted. SIL's 3 hari 3 malam wedding baru je habis, and this coming weekend another kenduri 'berkampung'. and my weekends on December are full with kenduris and weddings, and it is not just attending the ceromony aja okay...

Oh penatnya.

On another note, something tickle me and I felt seriously funny. Melatah kuat... makin lama makin nampak the true colors. Let it be! Ada hiburan sebegini sekali sekala, bagus juga... :)

Sigh.

: )

Whoa, kali ni nak berceloteh pasal Sarah pula. Sekarang sudah kuat makan, paling suka makan spageti or the likes asalkan kategori mee. Kalau kita makan,mesti mahu tumpang sekaki. Nampak saja dia kurus tinggi tapi agak semangat juga badannya. Kalau mahu dukung sentiasa boleh semput di buatnya.

Sejak 1 tahun 7 bulan ni, barulah boleh dengar banyak vocab dari mulut kecil ni. Lega juga kan, sebab hari-hari wonder bila mahu start bercakap. Tapi, Sarah faham semua yang kita katakan, dan boleh mendengar arahan. Cuma, dia nak mula bercakap agak lambat sedikit. Saya tak boleh putus untuk train dia setiap hari and so far memang menunjukkan progress. Alhamdulillah, sikit lagi becok lah mulut si kecik tuh.

Cuma satu yang saya perasan, Sarah agak 'reserve' on certain things ketika bersama kami, dan tidak bila bersama Mak Ros. Sebagai contoh, ketika bersama family Mak Ros dan anak-anaknya yang memang suka melayan dan mengajar Sarah, tanyalah apa saja soalan seperti "mana mata? kaki? tangan? gigi? mulut " or whatsoever memang cepat dan tepat dia tunjuk tapi bila dengan kami, dua tiga soalan dia layanlah, lepas tu buat-buat tak tahu sambil sengih manja dan ajak main. Saya berpendapat sama ada, pendekatan saya salah ataupun Sarah sendiri decide untuk begitu sebab of course lah waktu saya dengan dia lebih pendek berbanding dengan Mak Ros. Kalau di rumah Mak Ros dia sudah didisiplinkan sebegitu, bila dengan saya dia mahu a bit time off.

Saya sebenarnya bersyukur dan lega kerana Mak Ros dapat menjaga Sarah dengan baik, begitu juga dengan anak-anak beliau. Mak Ros ni sepupu saya, umur baru 30 an tapi anak 5 dan semua sudah besar dan anak-anak memang menjadi. Mak Ros juga yang banyak mengajar saya bab-bab parenting yang memang lah saya ni jauh dari berpengalaman. Maklumlah, siapa lagi kan nak mengajar saya yang sudah tiada emak ni dan MIL sendiri terlantar sakit kerana serangan strok sejak setahun yang lepas. Bercakap pun tak boleh lagi. Alhamdulillah, Allah memberi jalan yang mudah pada saya. Jika kita berniat dengan ikhlas untuk keluar dari rumah untuk bekerja atau melakukan sesuatu, Insyaallah apa saja keputusan kita akan diredhai. Yang penting pada saya kenalah sentiasa berfikiran positif . Pemikiran kita melambangkan diri kita kan?

Sebenarnya, saya sedang berkira-kira untuk membelikan laptop untuk Sarah. Tapi tak pasti adakah berbaloi nanti. Ada juga survey di web site dan di kedai tapi tidak promising enough lah. Lebih kepada buat toddler jadi boring. Ada satu yang saya berkenan, it's a PC tapi mahal sangat okay, RM 450 di ThinkToys. Budget saya sekitar bawah RM250 sahaja. Any recommendation? Sarah suka laptop saya. Tiap-tiap malam kami akan buka web kegemaran dia dan practice ABC sama-sama, or nyanyi lagu ke atau buat aktiviti bersama-sama depan lappy. Oh, jangan lah ingat saya ni nak mengajar anak saya jadi geek tidak bersosial pula. Dia sudah cukup bersosial dan berlasak waktu siang, malam kena lah ada aktiviti yang lain pula. Kan?

Sarah juga sekarang sudah pandai imitate kami solat. Comel saja tengok dia rukuk dan sujud dengan kaki dan tangan senget-senget begitu. Heh. Sungguh comel sekali.

Saya rasa zaman kanak-kanak sekarang sungguh competetive bukan? Kanak-kanak sekarang ramai yang bijak-bijak belaka, maklumlah banyak resource dan parents sekarang sudah introduce early education to them, most kindy pun dah start educating children in their early years. Dengan Smart Reader lah, Q Dees, Kumon tu belum lagi yang lagi terer macam Sichida dan sebagainya. and owh, yurannya faham-faham aja lah. Kalau dulu zaman saya, masa tadika sorang tak tahu baca ABC, yang lain pun konfem tak tahu. Kalau ada yang outstanding pun adalah seorang dua yang memang genius sejak azali lagi. Tapi sekarang kalau sudah tadika tapi tak tahu baca ABC itu sudah haru. Saya lebih suka serahkan pada yang pakar mengajar. Diri sendiri tidak mahir dalam bidang itu dan bercanggah dengan prinsip " kalau mahu buat sesuatu, make sure I am or will be good at it" Tidak mahulah sambil lewa, tak bagus tu. Mohon rezeki murah nanti bila tiba masa untuk Sarah enroll to early education.

Yang pasti bukan sekarang. Potty train pun belum pass lagi. Satu-satu okay. No rush here...

All I Want For The Birthday Is...

A Blessing, Long Lasting Happiness, Prosperity and Longevity.

Happy Birthday to Me.

But how nicer if I could get this...

Kesian saya, orang lain sudah lama berBB...

Or this!

to replace my Sony tu...

To reward or not to reward myself using the year end bonus nanti? That is the question. Tapi management belum declare how much pun lagi. Expected to get lower this year due to the recession... Hmm, kalo setakat sebulan dua pi diam-diam sudah.